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By ni (Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 07:27:53 PM EST) (all tags)
Smell from a time since forgotten.


New laundry detergent. My clothes smell strongly of it. I know this smell. I remember it from somewhere long ago.

When I was much younger -- eight or nine years old -- I spent several months staying with neighbours. My mother and I were entrenched in one of our semi-regular conflicts, and the neighbours, who had many times before shown kindness to me, offered to take me in for a bit. Maybe?

He wears a particular cologne, and the whole house smells like it. It's a nice smell. Even walking past, you'll often catch a whiff of it. I remember always smelling like his cologne when I was staying there. It seeped into everything. It's possible that I associate this laundry detergent with that time as well, but the cologne was so overpowering. Its claim to smell memory seems so much more valid than the laundry detergent's could be.

The smell is emotionally charged. It's from a significant time in my life, or event, or occasion. Staying there would qualify, although only barely. It's sexually charged. There's something (maybe only slightly?) erotic about the memory. Staying there would also, only barely, qualify.

I wish I knew what I smelled like.

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Oh, god. by ni (4.00 / 1) #1 Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 07:40:37 PM EST
I have just now remembered.


I CAN FLAKE MY OWN PARSLEY, RAWR -- persimmon


fill us in! by aphrael (4.00 / 1) #2 Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 07:44:37 PM EST
You surprize me aphrael by debacle (4.00 / 1) #3 Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 08:43:17 PM EST
Excited about an erotic memory about a grown man's cologne from when ni was eight?

I never saw that one coming...


"I'm very responsive to certain stimuli, and pain is pretty much at the top of that list." - BadDoggie

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oh come on. by aphrael (4.00 / 1) #6 Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 09:42:50 PM EST
it's ni. i don't understand how anyone, male or female who (a) has met him and (b) isn't a eunuch (or the female equivalent) could possibly not be interested in whatever he finds erotic.

If television is a babysitter, the internet is a drunk librarian who won't shut up.
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He was eight by debacle (4.00 / 1) #7 Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 09:54:00 PM EST
And it seems that he has no hair, though it could be the illusion of the binary canadian suns.

"I'm very responsive to certain stimuli, and pain is pretty much at the top of that list." - BadDoggie

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Well, by blixco (4.00 / 1) #4 Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 08:56:19 PM EST
I see we have two options here: we hunt the fucker down and make him drown in his own cologne, or we tell the world his name so that his political career is ended.
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The farmers always win.


Right. You've forced my hand. by ni (4.00 / 1) #5 Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 09:04:44 PM EST
It turns out that the smell was unrelated to the neighbour in question, who, though gay, was nothing but kind to me. Nothing untoward happened in those months, and I am extremely grateful to him for his kindness.

I didn't mean for this to end up being so question begging. Although I've realised where I know the smell from, it's not really publicly post-able. I feel like a dick for posting this now, as though I was aiming to look mysterious.

Blech.


I CAN FLAKE MY OWN PARSLEY, RAWR -- persimmon
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OK. by blixco (4.00 / 1) #8 Thu Sep 29, 2005 at 11:59:32 PM EST
It's OK.

How's things, otherwise?

That's my way of saying: it's OK, but if it wasnt, I'd kill what made it not OK.
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The farmers always win.
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Things by ni (4.00 / 2) #10 Fri Sep 30, 2005 at 12:15:36 AM EST
Lonely lately, that strange sort of loneliness that feels like your isolated in some desolate wasteland even though you're surrounded by people, and share long conversations and meals and drunken idiocy with them. I like some of these people, but it's like we're in different worlds. I thought this nobody-understands phase was supposed to end once I hit twenty? Or maybe it did. People do. They're just not here.

There's a money situation reaching an apex at the moment (rent due tomorrow, and no obvious way of paying it) but I think something will likely come up. Not all that concerned.

School's boring, but OK. Last year, and then I walk away with one degree, and back into another. Probably?

Other things are, in short, OK. It's all holding patterns for the moment, but that's necessary for now. I think.


I CAN FLAKE MY OWN PARSLEY, RAWR -- persimmon
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Please let me know by blixco (4.00 / 1) #11 Fri Sep 30, 2005 at 12:28:05 AM EST
if I can help with anything financially.

I cannot help with anything else.  I am 33, and still when I dream, i dream of living with my parents, and it makes me ill.
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The farmers always win.
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Thanks. by ni (4.00 / 1) #14 Fri Sep 30, 2005 at 04:37:33 PM EST
That's extremely kind of you. As anticipated, the problem ended up getting solved: I'd invoiced a couple of companies I've done work for, none of whom I seriously expected to extract money from. One tells me I'll be payed on Monday. The landlord is a good guy, and won't have a problem waiting until then.


I CAN FLAKE MY OWN PARSLEY, RAWR -- persimmon
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smells hit hard by calla (4.00 / 2) #9 Fri Sep 30, 2005 at 12:14:57 AM EST
Smells are directly linked to memories it seems, unlike other senses.

it's the reptilian part of us - right?

Wish you could tell...

"Shut that bitch up or I'll fuck start her head." blixy


i think reptiles smell with their tongues (nt) by tps12 (2.00 / 0) #12 Fri Sep 30, 2005 at 08:24:39 AM EST


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its me. by LilFlightTest (2.00 / 0) #13 Fri Sep 30, 2005 at 01:17:37 PM EST
or not. whatever it is, i'm sure its nice.
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